So, life has been pretty uneventful. I don't even know if you could call it life at all. It was nice at first but when my routine only consisted of eating, sleeping and reading, well I got and still am restless. I know all you people with undone assignments and cramming for exams would scream at me and shake me silly to bang some sense into me. But, guys when that's all you do, life isn't pretty! Nah-a!
All that free time got me thinking about stuff. Freaky stuffs. Things that have been shoved into the backburner a long time ago. Things that scream 'Reality' and are of no fun.
I can't come to terms with things. I don't feel like being "...a responsible young adult" yet. Yet! How did things get the way it did? It's all coming in huge tidal waves. I can't let it wash over me and I can't run.
Of all the things I need this and this is the one thing that will eventually have to be taken from me. Wrenched from its place in my life. It's totally toppled my believe system. I don't know anymore. Nothing is what I thought it was supposed to be. I just need a little more time. To figure things out before its taken away. Please stop the pain. Please let this be okay. Please, I'm just begging.
Tell me what to do...
minx wrote at1:06 AM
