off much deprived limelight

So, that day is now upon me. The day when I jump out of the conformity of uniforms into that of the supposed "carefree" world. Hmmph. I seriously doubt there won't be no more conformity. Instead, I think the burden of it will be even more pronounced now. Now, now, it's not like I'm being ultra negative of the whole affair.

I'm well aware it'll be an experience like no other.

Before [that] happened I was excited, thrilled, exhilirated by the whole asppect of it looming closer with each passing day. Post [that], the excitement is there with little bits of thrill here and there but exhiliration just completely vanished. Wiped off! As if it never did exist.

I know lah have to be positive and all. While I sit down here and cross every crossable body part, my stomach is twisting in knots 'cause I know that it'll take something more than a miracle for things to change.

Everyone's saying "Who knows? Maybe just maybe it'll be different.." Well maybe is not good enough! It was supposed to be mine. A unique thing that'll identify me for who I am and not this sickening conundrum. Now, it'll be like every other thing. Blend, blend and whoops! "I didn't even notice you" (invisibility without a magical cloak!)

I'll need more than luck. I'll need all the courage I can muster to make a difference 'cause I do think I deserve that much.

*I am me so 'lemme be! Go find you and stop feeding off me!

minx wrote at12:58 AM
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006 9:07 PM

bonded by blood and thankful for it (most of the time..=P)

happy past-ed borned day blood sis*!

The girl turned 16 on Labour Day! Woohoo! And mind you shes rich! At least richer than I currently am and I'm supposed to be earning cold hard cash. What lah! So if you people wana help me even the score, go rob R*se**n! Thanks, I know you'll help me out right?!
-At the sound of this sentence she rolls her eyes (more like narrows her eyes menacingly!) *sticks out tongue*

This has to be included. We had a weird sister instinct moment. As I typed *sticks out tongue*, she actually stuck out her tongue! *shudders* We are so NOT twins yet we have that effect going on.

Her pressie included my oh-so-measly "contribution" to her already looming large birthday fund. A weird *raises eyebrow* book from her bestie and erm..a supposed to be girly-lah crazy looking thingy which we still don't know how to use until this very moment - exactly 24 hours after she got it. Hee.

Fyi: She is the kind of person you should meet if you think making up crazy things is fun, or if you can stand her out-of-the-world funny impersonations of Russel Peters, or if you don't mind her babbling off God-knows-what in French (at unexpected moments), and if you think sharing is caring. =) Uh oh! And if you tend to burn your omelets and spoil your noodles, all you (or shall I say I=)) have to do is...

Thanks blood sis* ! And happy getting older. Hee.

The title says it all yeah? At least I'm honest right?! Hee.

*mwahh* =))

[ Whoever said spending too much time with someone is bad for you. Unless that someone begins to re-demonstrate silat through her constant rattling or sudden face-changing, hand-flying, leg-kicking moves. *clears throat* hints! ]

Hee. You know I love hearing 'bout moves I can't even begin to imagine, right? lol

minx wrote at9:07 PM
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